I didn’t feel Christmas this year. I told my family i am flying to India and will study some subjects link with yoga, surrendering myself with friends and great teachers instead. I get so bored in France and the impossibility to do things I enjoy and I would always choose to learn from life then rack up myself in a desk.
But Christmas makes me sick sometimes, all those plastic shit, made in china toys and consumption, just feels like too much. Advertising everywhere and all those things, things, things and more. I like the gathering family of Christmas and sharing meals, drinking fine champagne and having this cosy Xmas atmosphere together. But gifts should be last and love first.
So because I stop almost contributing to all industries I am not cautioning anymore, this thing also is less important. And here I am in India, the atmosphere was very weird in a hot wet country and nobody and nowhere you feel a drop of the Xmas fragrance. Instead of the typical 5hour meal course with my large family, on December 25th, my gift was to enroll yoga with BNS Iyengar in Mysore, that was pure joy and spiritual in some way. Class was almost empty and the talk about philosophy uplifts me. One more legend I had the chance to met in the yoga field and get to know more about the very traditional aspect of Ashtanga.
I am grateful for the space I created in my life to shape it the way I want, and learn about holistic things who passionate me such as Yoga, Ayurveda and keep doing creative projects that supports my living expenses.
The best gift you can receive is actually not from others, as happiness is not taken by someone but only you. Being responsable of your own fate and working hard to direct that energy to live fully and according to your potential is very very challenging because it is not easy to figure out who you are, but the results are worsted!
And I cannot disciplined myself to be what others expect I should do like family or relatives. I am not a well-behaved woman. I am not scared of this society life routine, I did it, but it is not tasty compare to others experiences and I want to show that I can do better than following rules all my life. As it happened that I became a great fashion buyer without a specific degree, and now reconvert to serve better causes, I don’t need a degree to prove that I am smart to be integrated.
Now I own only moments and freedom but that’s different from my past and it helps me to grow. Past is just memories and a guide to evolve.
So this year starts with some 100hr of strong yoga practices to improve what I started learning few years ago and that keep me happy, healthy and get to know amazing beings in this community and plus travelling around India that i get to experience the local train in sleeping class, overnight bus, some funny guesthouse, street food and my love for pani puri in Mysore, crazy amount of Masala Chai from all cities, drumming evening dance in Goa, selling my jewelry at Arambol beach and creating my shop with banana leaves, bending my back like mad, driving a motorbike with gears for the first time, kissing mad, dancing techno, climbing the ruins of Hampi with Sarah one of my bestie, cooking indian food with locals and more recently learning properly Ayurveda as it has been my wish since 5 years. It has been only 6 weeks and much more to learn and enjoy from incredible India!
I love all smells, smile, wise people, colored clothes, smoking beedies and even if this country is challenging It also give you strength.
So here are some pics from my trip and I hope you will enjoy.